Today’s reading starts on page 52, On Disappointing People.
And hopefully you’ll not be disappointed in me since I have no video today, haha!
Truthfully, I’m laying here in bed well after midnight writing this post. You don’t want to see me on video because it wouldn’t be pretty. At all.
I’m not going to spend a lot of time trying to give the perfect words. All I’m going to say is that I really struggled today with this whole disappointing people thing.
I got a message from someone in our church and I instantly knew something was wrong. I don’t need to go into all the details, but it was the kind of message you get and your heart sinks immediately.
What did I do wrong? Did I make them mad? Did I say something I shouldn’t have said? Maybe I’m not cut out to be a leader in our church? Maybe it’s time for me to step down.
I spent the entire afternoon replaying the situation in my head. I had responded to my friend but of course there was radio silence. This made it even worse.
They must be mad since they aren’t responding. If they weren’t mad they would have come right back with an answer. WHAT did I do???
Brian called me out. It didn’t matter. I was too busy justifying my reactions.
At the end of the day, I remembered the words from our book – along the way you WILL disappoint someone.
So, what happens when we do disappoint?
Today caused me to pause and take a look at my actions. This is truly a person I don’t want to disappoint who means a lot to me in my life. Once I let the dust settle from my gut reactions, I had to ask myself some tough questions. Where are they coming from with their perspective or observation? Are there things I’ve been ignoring or taking for granted?
God, what can you teach me from this situation?
Sometimes I think God uses days like today to humble me and let me know I can’t do it all. I can’t make everyone happy, I can’t be in control.
And mostly – I can’t do it without Him.
How about you? What are you struggling with when it comes to disappointing people?
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