Have you been there?
In a way, I’m there tonight. I can relate to this statement more than I care to admit:
Why did I spend all my time blessing blessed people who should be on the giving side of the equation by now? (Interrupted pg 7)
I lead worship in a small church. I also help teach Children’s Church. When you are part of a small church, you can easily get caught into wearing many hats. Maybe you’ve been there.
And I can relate to the fact that for most of my life, I’ve been part of a Pastor’s family. Church is part of my DNA. Even to this day, I don’t get the luxury of missing church – just because. Funny thing is, I actually enjoy church. Most days, there’s no where else I’d rather be.
But, why do I sometimes still feel so dry?
Why do I feel like a cheerleader trying to get people to understand the power of worship?
Why do we continually beg people to come to church, come to Sunday School, etc.?
Why do I feel so much pressure to constantly try and keep Christians happy so they won’t leave and go to another church?
Am I missing the mark?
What happened to church being more about Jesus and less about who’s upset and getting mad this week?
Maybe you haven’t seen this side of ministry if you aren’t involved in church leadership. I’ve been far too close for too many years to ignore these questions and frustrations.
I can see why someone would walk away and say, “I don’t need church if that is what church is all about.”
God, tonight I need to hear from You. There are things I don’t understand and questions I have. There is an emptiness and void that is deep in my soul – and I know only You can satisfy. Speak to me in a fresh way, through a fresh perspective. Open my eyes, open my ears. Help me listen closely for Your voice and direction. Work in the midst of our congregations to ask the tough questions and bring to light the purpose You have set before us. Lead us to a fresh anointing. Amen!
What stood out to you from today’s reading?