Here we are! 20 days into our 40 day prayer journey. How are you guys feeling?
I know that it’s been a tough week for many of us. My health is still getting the best of me over the past couple of days and tonight I did something no one should EVER do: research symptoms on the internet. Ya’ll – I have self diagnosed myself with all kinds of crazy things!! Stop it.
Regardless of my circumstances, I am reflecting on how I have been changed in the past 20 days. Just yesterday I wrote in my journal: God, can you believe how far we’ve come?
It doesn’t matter if you’ve taken baby steps, crawled and dragged your exhausted self to your daily appointments, or struggled and made up missed time. The point is: You are still here. And God is still listening. And God is moving.
And there are victories!! Just this morning I got a text from one of our team members that gave praise for an answer to the very first prayer she started circling on this journey. Praise the Lord!
And there are more stories. Some we may never know in this lifetime. Things are being birthed in every single one of us during this journey that will have outcomes across generations. Can ya’ll even imagine the impact of all of our prayers? Can you picture generations to come that will reap the benefits of our daily appointments with God? Awesome.
Today’s reading spoke to me in such a special way.
I’m about to get super personal and share something that is extremely close to my heart and family. And I’m probably gonna type too much. So if you’re bored, just move on and don’t feel bad. I won’t even know if you don’t read it…really.
Before I even had a thought about starting this 40 day challenge, God was dealing with me very specifically about 2 things: obedience and my job.
I’ve felt an uneasiness in my role at work for a while and a tugging that I am supposed to be following my calling in a way like never before. One minor detail: I have no clear definition what that calling is supposed to be at this point. Scary stuff? Yep. I have a few ideas and dreams, but there have been no stone tablets sent down from God telling me the way.
All I know is I’m supposed to be writing. And writing has taken a back seat – mostly because our family and my work took up all of my time. I just didn’t have much left to give to writing.
Several weeks before starting this 40 day challenge, I had a conversation with a friend. She made the statement, “What if God is preparing you to walk away from your job without knowing what is next?”
Seriously? Who does that? Not me. I work with my husband, ya’ll. How’s that gonna go over? “Oh honey, I quit. But I don’t know what I’m gonna do.” Crazy. Insane. Borderline psycho.
I have always had in my mind that God would give or at least show me the next thing and THEN I could move on from my work in our family business. What if that isn’t His plan?
Did you read this one line in today’s reading yet?
There are moments in life when you need to quit a job, make a move, or end a dating relationship. And you need to take that step without knowing what the next step will be. Don’t wait for more revelation; be obedient to the amount of revelation God has given you.(pg 113 – Draw the Circle)
Did you catch that? No, not the part about ending a dating relationship!! Ha! Quit a job…make a move…take that step without knowing what the next step will be…be OBEDIENT! Did somebody call up Mark Batterson and tell him about me?>??
Ok, God. I’m listening.
Then there’s the very next page:
Our failure to act on what we know God is calling us to do not only breeds doubt and discouragement; it’s a form of disobedience. (pg 114 – Draw the Circle)
Ouch. And do I dare tell you all that God has even been very clear over the past couple of weeks with taking things away from me at work? I’ve been standing in the way…for a very long time. And I have been breeding doubt and discouragement..big time!
I want so badly to be like Abraham and GO without even knowing the final destination. That takes an insane amount of faith and trust. More than I have on my own at this moment. I’ve got to spend some extra time seeking God and asking Him to take over – get me out of the way. I’ve got to ask for courage to be bold and to take the next step, no matter what.
I don’t know what kind of crazy things God is prompting you to do, but I will be the one that leads the pack. When someone tells you how crazy you are, just tell them about this even CRAZIER girl that is leading our prayer challenge. She’s insane.
The problem is that most of us want the twenty-five year plan before we’re willing to step out in faith. We want to know exactly where we’re going and exactly when we’ll get there, but God doesn’t operate that way. He give us just enough revelation, just enough grace, just enough strength. Why? So we will live in daily dependence on Him. He doesn’t want us to rely on the revelation; He wants us to rely on Him. (pg 113 – Draw the Circle)
Just enough grace. Just enough strength. DAILY dependence on Him. Rely on Him.